NOTE: This post was originally made July 6th, 2015. I Fucked Up will be coming to the internet and available through the Black Unicorn Press website soon!
An Autobiographical Anthology
Edited by Fredrick Thomas Long
The concept of autobiography as anthology is rather conceited. But sometimes invented perspective into one’s own life gives the opportunity to put “truth” in its constructed context between the experience and the people experiencing it. I Fucked Up is about the invention of selves and the experiences that define them. As the name would imply, I Fucked up is a semi-linear exploration of the takes and mistakes of Benjamin C. Roy Cory Garrett.
Here is an anonymous review/response to I Fucked Up that maybe explains the content more honestly than I:
“[yr book] which i loved reading and remembering people and having a little window in to your world and seeing/exploring/feeling the depth of male guilt and i also wonder about male essentialism and how that is bullshit and how you are not defined by your gender and can bask in your own amazingness without guilt or i would like to think/hope that that is a possibility for all people. and i felt like you were being to hard on yourself and wanted to offer you a hug and appreciation for all the ways you show up in the world that defy your social conditioning”
Here is another review that strokes an author’s ego:
“Anyway, I was damn glad I read it, and I hope a lot more people get the opportunity. It seems to me you’ve constructed something that a lot of auto/biographies could take a lesson from–namely, a text that looks and reads like a living document. A selfish part of me hopes you keep adding sections to it; a more charitable part of me wonders how possible it is for you to put it down and move on. The inter-text parts were also hot shit. Some of the most emotional moments come in the email inclusions and the letters, not to mention the dialogic divisions of space in the initial text. You’ve really hit on something there.”
The book itself is an unusual project as it is designed to be a living print document. Unlike traditionally bound books, I Fucked Up is designed to rearrangeable by the reader, and additional secret material is available for those that follow the instructions inside. While the first updates to to the anthology, advancing the edition to .01.04 was going be going in the mail October 2015, circumstances led to that not happening. The good news is that new updates to the book will be getting published digitally in the near future and will be accessible, and printable for free online. The Black Unicorn Press has only 1 copy of the book left, so it is no longer available by any means known to us.
Below is a picture of the TRUE cover of the print anthology. All other versions are fakes and their authenticity cannot be confirmed.
