Since it has come up twice in previous posts, I think it is time I write about why I think loyalty, as a value in relationships, is a misplaced attempt to establish security instead of empathy or a shared sense of empowerment in a relationship.
Now, I know I have pretty negative things to say about loyalty as a value, but before I do, I really want to emphasize that I have nothing negative to say about people who value it. Loyalty as a value is not even in the same ball park of terrible as something like Andrew Tate valuing misogyny. There are legitimately good people with good reasons for valuing loyalty.
My issue with loyalty as a value is that it is deceptive in what it really expressed and how it creates harmful, unrealistic expectations (things I get into later). Maybe I’ll win you over with my argument, or maybe I won’t, but I am not on a quest to destroy loyalty as as a value in the same way that I definitely am to destroy patriarchal misogyny. If you disagree with me about loyalty as a value, I can totally respect that and would be happy to have a conversation with you about that, in a way that I do not want to have a conversation with anyone about how men should value misogyny.
Ok, so with that out of the way, let’s talk about Loyalty.
There is a whole boat load of anti-authoritarian, feminist, and post modern theory that underwrites the way I look at relationships, power and identity that I don’t have the mental bandwidth to write out like an academic cultural criticism essay right now. If you want me to break some of this stuff down in the future, please let me know what specifically interests you, but here are 2 kind of important, “big” ideas, that a lot of what I have to say about loyalty rests on:
1. Power exists in all interactions and relationships between people. Not just the power people bring to that relationship or interaction, but the social and political forces that have shaped the experiences and identities of each of the people in the relationship. You could maybe look to Michel Foucault for a more eloquent break down of this, maybe his book Discipline and Punishment? What is really important to point out from this is that when people enter into relationships with other people, they are doing it for some kind of benefit, usually related to power, in some fashion, even if that power is something like, “the power to be myself around another person,” or “the power to receive financial stability in exchange for some kind of emotional, sexual, or domestic labor.”
2. There are different ways to create and use power. From Physics, to Psychology, to Philosophy, Sociology and Political Science, power can mean many different things but is generally considered the ability to do or be or have done an intended thing. Many people consider power, especially social power, to be the second definition of Power, as found here in the Merriam-Webster dictionary , “possession of control, authority or influence over others,” but that is pretty much only one very shallow kind of social power which a theorist Starhawk calls “power-over.” Starhawk also talks about “power-with” and “power-within.” She develops her theories about these different kinds of power in an excellent book titled Truth or Dare. I am not going to talk to much about power-within for this discussion about loyalty, I don’t think, as I am going to focus on power-over and power-with. Power-with is pretty much exactly what it sounds like, but I will be using it in contrast to the Merriam-Webster’s 2nd definition of power, to be the ability to do or be or have done an intended thing without the need for control, authority or influence over others. In other words, power-with is when the desired thing gets done because the people doing it are doing it together because they want to, not because they are being forced.
Back to loyalty as a value. I would like to believe that most people want to believe that their romantic relationships are relationships of equals. People who advocate for Patriarchal Misogyny (PM) are people who don’t want to believe that their partner is truly their equal in terms of power and authority within their relationships, but most people are not PM losers and realize that romantic relationships where power is shared, or created and used collaboratively with the other people in the relationship, are stronger and more rewarding relationships (I am only talking about romantic relationships here and not sexual ones, for reasons that might best be discussed in a future post. Romantic relationship can include sexual relationships, but don’t have to). So, people generally want their romantic relationships to be relationships of equals, because it makes for better relationships, and that is a good thing to want and to work to accomplish in romantic relationships…but relationships between people do not happen on desert islands in which there is no outside society or world exerting pressure on them. This means that the people involved in the romantic relationship are both bringing their entire lives (and all of their experiences) prior to the relationship into the relationship, and those experiences are shaping how each person in the relationship is able to participate in, contribute to, and benefit from the relationship.
When the people in the romantic relationship come from different places in their lives and experiences (which everyone does, many so in very different ways) it can be nearly impossible for everyone involved in the relationship to understand what kinds of things enable and empower the other person (or persons) in the relationship, and what kinds of behaviors, words and actions end up extracting energy and power for that person, not build them up. All of this is to say something pretty obvious really, but something easy to over look when getting wrapped up in the “magic” of forming a romantic relationship: You can’t really know what another person has been through, or how it affects their ability to be in a romantic relationship without doing a lot of talking, listening, and giving each other time to process how those past experiences are affecting this new one.
Instead of doing this work, which pretty inevitably lasts as long as the relationship itself does, because people grow and change, it is really easy to look for short cuts that can stand in for doing that work over and over again. For the vast majority of people, cultural values and ideas (usually stored and shared in popular media) provide a multitude of these short cuts past having to do difficult communication work within the relationship. Words like “dating,” “boyfriend,” “partner,” “fuckboi,” “wife,” are all words that people use because they do the definitional work of establishing personal, interpersonal and social expectations for relationships. In addition to the words that we use to define ourselves and the others in our relationships, the other big category of words we use as short cuts in doing relationship communication work, even when trying to do that work, are the “value words” we use to try to define behaviors and beliefs that we are looking to encourage in the relationship. This is (finally) where loyalty comes back in.
Many people think of loyalty as a shared value that establishes trust and equality in a romantic relationship. If the people in the relationship are acting loyally to each other, then power must be shared, right? But loyalty is a hollow and meaningless word outside of the circumstances in which it is being tested. It is easy to be loyal to your king when you feel like you are getting everything you could reasonably expect from giving your allegiance to him. It is much more difficult to be loyal to a king that is giving you nothing at all for your allegiance, and when you think of loyalty in this ruler/ruled context (where the concept of loyalty comes from in the first place)…well it becomes pretty messed up for rulers to expect unswerving allegiance from subjects that are getting nothing (or worse than nothing) in return. That is just an abuse of authority and power.
“But, romantic relationships are supposed to be relationships of equals right? So the ruler/ruled context shouldn’t be relevant!”
This is where placing the expectation for loyalty becomes so problematic to me.
1. I personally want my romantic partners to feel more empowered and more free to be and to become the self they most want to be in the world, as a result of building a romantic relationship with me. I hope that empowerment and freedom leads them to value me, and what I contribute to the relationship, just as I hope to be a good enough listener and communicator to make the relationship a place where vulnerable and difficult ideas, feeling and dreams can be shared, but I also realize that a lot of the people I have had romantic relationships with in the past have a history of relationships (some romantic, but also familial, social and economic) not valuing their empowerment, freedom or ability to become the self that they most want to be in the world. As someone who identifies as a man, I have to acknowledge that a lot of the cultural ideas that surround loyalty as a value exist and are reinforced to my benefit in social relationships, especially in romantic relationships with people who identify as women. I don’t really want to waste my time right now trying to explain this one. If that doesn’t immediately make sense to you, may just look at the history of patriarchal family relationships and how much political struggle it took for women to get the right exist as more than just the property of their fathers, husbands and sons.
2. I can talk a pretty game with my telling my romantic partners that I want them to be empowered and free to become and continue to grow as the person that they most want to be in the world…but can I walk the walk that proves that I really value my romantic partner(s) in this way? That doesn’t take promises and words, it takes time and the work from me to turn conversations into actions. Sometimes, in the past (and maybe, hopefully, the present) I have succeed in doing this well enough for my partners to want to be able to talk to me about changes that are occurring in their lives, their feelings, and the world around them enough to keep including me all of those things as a romantic partner…and sometimes I have failed. Big desires and goals can create a lot of ambition but also a lot of pressure in relationships and both of those things can lead people to be more afraid of letting someone else down than of questioning whether those desires and goals are even shared anymore. Fear can lead to insecurity, which can lead to saying things people don’t mean in the hopes that it can either make the words themselves true, or at least keep others from questioning them. It is the people who insist that you trust them that always seem to be the least trust worth and the most likely to exploit whatever trust we are about to give them.
Leading to 3. Most of the time people start talking about loyalty in romantic relationships, it is coming either from a place of vulnerability and hurt, and trying to avoid the mistakes of the past (instead of looking to the present and building up what is and could become)…or it is coming from a boatload of preconceived ideas about romantic relationships developed from bad media examples and little experiencing processing difficult emotions, or at least, little positive experience processing those emotions. In both cases it should serve as a warning flag that deeper and more vulnerable conversations are needed, about where our relationship expectations are coming from, and how we intend to grow past the insecurities and heartbreaks that have made us establish those walls.
Ok, all of that probably sounds a little wish-washy and hypothetical. But I promise I am speaking from a lot of personal experience. I have been the kind of “cheated on” that shattered my life and left me reeling as I tried to pick up the pieces, but the problem was never actually “my romantic partner is just an unfaithful person, incapable of loyalty.” The problem was almost always something more like, “I am constructing a fantasy world for myself and an imagined version of my romantic partner that might not actually be that person at all, because I am not creating the space and time to talk about these growing desires I have for the relationship in the kind of way that lets them be an equal partner in our relationship and its future…” even when I really thought I was putting in the time and work to make that happen. I can understand where some people might think it would be awesome to just have a series of magical words to say or oaths that can taken that make doing that hard and very often fruitless-feeling work of developing a strong romantic relationship unnecessary (its only truly fruitless work when you give up on trying to do it in the future). However, magical fantasy relationships that take no time or effort on our part to maintain tend to be pretty worthless relationships in the long run for everyone involved. That isn’t to make a “romantic relationships need to be painful” argument. Not all work/labor has to be unfun or painful. In fact, experiencing pain in a romantic relationship is a very good warning flag to reevaluate whether this specific relationship is a relationship empowering you as much as you are putting in the effort to make it something that can empower others. But all of our relationships are defined by the time we put in them and the number one way to show someone that your relationship with them is meaningful (romantic or not) is to make sure that the other person feels like the work of building and growing the relationship is shared and mutually enjoyed. This isn’t accomplished by trying to control the behaviors of another person with words like loyalty, but by being present with and aware of the other person and the person they are becoming.
Loyalty is, at best, a horizontal move towards a static, unchanging relationship-state. It is almost always an expectation, even when it is leveled at oneself, that leads towards disappointment and shame or anger. Instead of loyalty, I want to offer sincerity as a personal goal in romantic relationships, not to be used as a threat: “you must be sincere in your actions and words towards me, or else I will leave you;” but as a tool of self-awareness: “I want this relationship to be a place where everyone involved can do the work of becoming more sincere with ourselves about who we want to be and what world we want to create with each other.”